If you saw my vision board in my last post, then you saw a picture of the most amazing baby boy in the universe! Drum roll please…. (I hope you’re doing the drum roll thing in your head lol). Everyone, please give a round of applause and a warm welcome to the LFT fam, my godson, Daniel Jones!
Isn’t he so precious? I want to melt every time I see his picture 🙂 . Having our good friends Jengerbread (Jenny) and B (Bryan) bestow us the honor of being this little dude’s godparents is just amazing, and Marlon and I are so grateful. When they first asked us if we could be baby Daniel’s godparents, I was so happy and excited! Unfortunately, that excitement turned into a bit of resentment towards my own godmother and my relationship with her.
I saw my godmother once as a baby and once as a child — both times, I was too young to remember, and I didn’t see her again until 2019 when I was helping my mom out at the health fair at her job. She hugged me, acted like she was interested in the details of my life, and talked about catching up as if we were the best of friends who just lost touch for a few years. She was a stranger to me, and I didn’t like the idea of pretending that she wasn’t. When I was asked to be Daniel’s godmother, this moment popped up in my mind, and I didn’t realize how bitter I was about her lack of presence in my life until that day.
According to YouAreMom.com, the role of a godparent is to be a “role model and confidant to their godchild”, “help their godchild reach their goals, celebrate their achievements and support their parents at decisive moments” and “take on the role of parents if anything should happen to mom and dad”. I was deprived of this growing up, and it bothers me so much. I’m not trying to throw myself a pity party or have anyone in the comment section feel sorry for me. I want y’all to know my story so that you understand why being a godmother means so much to me.
Hopefully one day, I am able to shed the bitterness that I have in my heart toward my godmother, and I’ll do my best to work through this in therapy. However, right now, I want to make a vow that I will not be non-existent in baby Daniel’s life. I promise to love him, help him learn and grow, and be there for him in any way that he needs me. He will know who I am.
“A Godmother is a one-and-only lady in a child’s life. She’s chosen with care by the parents and invited to offer love, counsel, wisdom, and encouragement. You have the privileged position of being an advocate, friend and confidant for life. Someone the child can turn to as a friend who loves them as family.”
— Maralee McKee