Ahem, ahem. Alexa, play “Welcome Back” by Mase.
Yes, I am back, and it feels sooooo good to be writing to you all again. It’s been a few months since I’ve posted a blog, but I don’t want to just hop back into the swing of things. No, you all deserve an explanation as to why I haven’t been writing, so here goes.
I’ll be 100% honest with you all — I’ve been mentally and emotionally exhausted for some time now. With the unjust murders of Black people like Breonna Taylor and George Floyd, COVID-19 cases on the rise in many states, and trying to get through final exams and a virtual graduation, it’s a miracle that I haven’t gone insane yet. Seriously. I’ve had to delete my social media apps from my phone and just unplug from the world for a bit just to get my head on straight.
Naturally, because of this, I haven’t been in the best place mentally to blog. I felt like I would have been a hypocrite if I put a blog post out. How can I encourage and uplift others when I can’t even uplift myself out of the dark funk I was in? I knew that I would come back to writing eventually, and when I did, it would be whenever I felt that I was in a better space to do so.
Now that I’m back and feeling much better, I want to take a second to say that it’s okay to unplug and disconnect whenever you feel mentally and emotionally overwhelmed. If you told me that two months ago, I would have said you were crazy. At that time, I thought, “How can I just abandon my readers and not give them consistent content? I can’t just unplug!” Because I was in this state of mind, I felt pressured to just put out anything on my blog so that I don’t fall behind on posts, but that only added to the massive amount of stress that I was already under. However, I realized that there was no need to feel guilty or sad that I wasn’t putting out content. I knew that my readers would want me to be okay first so, I trusted the process and waited, and I’m so glad that I did. If there’s anything that I encourage you to take away from this post, it’s this — remember that you have to put your mental health first before anything else. I needed that time away so that I can be at my absolute best for myself, my family, and all of you. You’re not a failure for needing some time away from the thing you love to do, and you’re not selfish for taking some time for yourself. It’s a very brave thing to do to admit that you’re not at your best and to wait until you are to get things done.
“The opportunity to step away from everything and take a break is something that shouldn’t be squandered.”
– Harper Reed